FRI realize im reali sick down with bad coughing & slight fever, planning with god sis elaine to come over to my place for chit chatting.. but didnt know wth happen to me, as im waiting for his extra mile concern but he didnt.. tears drop!! sob sob...
when im coughing i tot he would care abt me but he didnt, i tot he would take water for me but he didnt.. he's actually too concentrate towards his bloody com & he expect me to change dan he will take water for me aft i ASKED him!! #$%^&%)(*$#% water arrive infront of me, he seem to be force by me!! knn.. so im stubborn as well trying to show pattern dun wanna drink, cos i couldnt control my tears for being sad for his actions...
"wat u had for lunch??"concern by him!! n im stupid enough to ans him i had "chicken rice"when im coughing... haha!! lan lan kena by him.. but still feel sad abt it so i didnt wanna talk to him even when having dinner, aunite cook CHICKEN i didnt eat alot.. wanted to faster finish up my rice n get the hell out of the kitchen, guess mummy n ah ma also feel im weird ba... anyway im sick ald so pei cek who the hell care..
suddenly hubb came n talk to me n he saw me crying, guess he muz be thinking "y tis women crying??" so i told him abt the care n concern i wan frm him.. im glad he try very hard to make me smile back.. before dinner i sms sis not to come, dan aft everything is ok i ask her to come..!!
aft 1 yr i finally get to see her my god sis, we suppose to have 3 of us n is cherry... but i guess now me n sis is married n she have 2 kids ald, life change n as for me my life tone down alot so 2 auntie can click more i guess.. chat abt life wat's going on, wat have happen, wat had we miss out abt our life.. i reali feel glad to know her cos she's a very brave women, she know wat i mean i guess.. the past we use to had tgt!!
i dunno if she will read tis but i wanna let her know, i will still be there for her and i believe life will change slowly n everything will get better for her... im looking forward to see ting ting n xuan xuan... muackz!!
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SAT woke up with fever yet im going to work, yes half day very fast will end wan... reali feel my sick is real bad n damn jialet i totally got no energy, even when i talk no longer the active gal.. haha!! trying hard to
tong till 1pm but 12pm i ald cannot liao, my head down on the table.. they see me like tat also scare i guess, im
force to go home early... haha!!
wanted to rest awhile at hm dan go eat but tis stupid hx call me ask me dun sleep go eat lunch with them, wth im reali abt to fall asleep!! had bee hoon soup with hx, siang & bee talk awhile go hm n sleep.. the weather so damn HOT but im hiding inside my blanket, n the heat on my body is like burning..
baby came back n she give me medicine.. so sweet, aft tat medi i sweat like nobody business la.. sleep sleep sleep ZZZzzzzzz..... hubb came back so i ready for dinner finally getting abit better..!! slacking at home reali bored sia..
was chatting msn with wendybaby she jio mj but we couldnt find becbec, haiz so we carry on to talk rubbish on msn.. dan becbec call me, sumthing sad happen to her omg damn worried abt her, she say she wanna come over to my place.. waited for her dan we talk downstairs also while talking we wait for wendybaby to reach, finally everything is settle n problems we share tgt everything is fine..
time to play mj... we play till halfway my hubb say hungry n we wanted to go da bao for him, but wenbb say wanna cook maggie mee so we let do watever cooking she wan.. but she change idea of cooking fried rice!! haha.. we even cook fried toufu in the middle of the night, the rice turn out to be too wet, dan when she wanna do her fried rice everything turn into MUIFAN!! wow lau the 3 gals was like laughing like hell la n tat hubb still can play his game happily everybody gotta serve him, haiz...
sleeepp at 4am... so long nv sleep so late ald..... happy mj night!!
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SUN wake up round noon time thinking of going out or maybe movie with bff but timing not match dan slacking at home watch scv also, suddenly rain dan turn out to be lazy to go out.. watching dvd at home also!!
before we sleep i ask him "till now do u know y i cry tat day??" he ans me "cos i scold u eating chicken rice lo.." in fact im not!! so we were talking n im telling him abt my need or demand frm him, of cos i cant expect him to be a 100% person, but i jus need more care n concern frm him.. hmmm i know he's trying also.. i ask him "is it bcos im weak n i always tell u i here pain there pain, so now im sick u dun feel anything..?" n he ans me "maybe lo!!" omg when i heard tis word my tears drop AGAIN, wat happen to me.. y i cant control myself??
i feel sad is bcos i blame myself for being weak, when im sick is jus a normal thing.. is nothing special to him!! maybe im EMO tis is wat i imagine, i realise i couldnt control myself more n more.. for any hurting words i heard from him mouth my tears will jus fall... i dun understand, is it bcos i love him even more??
MON saw my tagboard frm sis our trip is cancel.... haiz wat else m i going to look forward for?? i wanna go for holiday leh....
my hub is sleeping now n he jus sleep talk "faster eat the curry rice will have alot of energy...!!" wtf!!
