is a eve night but the mood i'm having is damn shit damn down, listening to the radio suddenly is all those which let me think of it, im EMO again yes very EMO.. working in a blur mood or maybe i reali dun look happy as pple can see but of cos not to show out jus keep everything in my heart, i know i have to be strong but im trying so hard im so tired.. i dunno wat im thinking wat i wan, m i willing to give up everything?? i hate it hate to cry but i cant help it when tears jus fall like tat... i suppose to be happy with wat i have, should be happy with my work and wat the hell im having tis kinda feelings?? i think im coming back to my old life i reali dunno how to put away my stress my paranoid...