blogging @ orchard mandarin hotel now, having our so call gathering here with all my lovely frens Wendy sis, JJ, Joseph xiao di, Ju precious, Yati and april!! we went to the pool and swim oh god since so long that i went to touch water, JJ is so stupid cos he feel the water is so cold, haha i didnt bring my swim suit but wearing my clothes to go down thw water!! maybe tis suppose to feel happy abt it but it turn out tat i become emo cos again, me and cas quarrel cos i didnt msg him aft he leave the hotel n he feel im happily with my frens so i didnt went to think of him. i wanted to cheer him up cos i know he's not happy abt me having tis so call party with them, but end up war still start haiz!! i spoil everyone mood cos i end up crying like hell haha, all of them were so scare of me being emo maybe i jus dunno wat to do when thing turn out to be like tat... got scream!!! GOD!! sis feel sad abt me so she talk to him saying he shouldnt have scream at me and say sorry aft tat, haiz i feel so tired but i didnt wanna end everything like tat cos i know i love him i have ald thrown all my feelings towards him!! wat else?? all my silly action jus cant be accept by him cos i always forget all the promises i made to him, im always blur sumtimes i reali feel very depress but i cant do anything but wat im happy of is my sis, my precious around me but i jus wan my precious not be sad cos no matter wat i'll be there for her... i hope i wont make any mistake to let him throw his anger to me again, god can u jus enlighter me and not let me do any msitake!!!